i have never been one at making good impressions.. i have even had friends tell me that they hated me at first but only gradually warmed up to me later.. it is something i am terrible at and it didnt really bother me until now... since i have to pass interviews before i can actually start working. i think i have practically failed ALL of my interviews save one, where i passed the 1st round and then failed the 2nd. its practically a 100% failure rate.

perhaps it is because i am not good at it thats why i think this way, but i just feel that action is more important than smooth talking. i mean, people can say alot of stuff and in the end turn out to be empty vessels. i just feel that it is meaningless to play pretend to be someone i am not and it really stresses me out..

its not like i cant act, but interviews are really close and of course the bb comes into play.

sigh...