zazen

i have not meditated for a long time.. just too distracted with tv and computers and all my troubles ?

but since there really doesnt seem to be any cure to my bb, the alternative would be to cope and try to live with it, which is why i went back to meditation, since its MIND TRAINING haha

but yea yesterday night was something special, you know, something like the zone between consciousness and sleeping.. but still awake =p

i dont really know how to describe it, just a very peaceful feeling, very light, and though i know my limbs are there, my hands are resting on my legs, i can hardly feel them at all. just a very peaceful and somehow high feeling. yet a part of me knew it wouldnt last, probably because i dont have enough practice.. and sure enough within a minute or two i was fast asleep, a very deep and relaxing slumber :) :)

today was my 2nd day at the borders book fair.. i really wish they could have given us more welfare, like letting us choose one book to tapau home? haha. anyway yea i did talk to one of the girls but it wasnt really a conversation. and though i did talk to the guys i didnt make any friends.. bb is one factor, but i still have alot to learn when making friends in this kind of situation!!!!