not a good person

yesterday, which is actually tomorrow, and today which is really two days ago :) :)
made me very pensive, reflective, moody and what have you.

two days ago (also today) i noticed that some people around me are remarkably friendly. maybe i wasnt in the mood or something, but at that point i just didnt feel like talking to anyone, so it somehow made me feel extra bad that i wasnt making the effort to engage people and learn more about them.

yesterday was even worse, meeting up made me feel so out of depth, out of touch, not to mention out of dollars. it was totally depressing and i woke up in the middle of the night, unable to go back to sleep. time to make more concrete plans and make more effort to be a better person. it is always a continuous process.