new day, new year

times flies and it just felt that yesterday i was watching the new year's fireworks in Jakarta.  it has been a fairly event year so i thought i would reflect a little on the past year.

Weddings
I attended at least 9 weddings in 2014, which is quite alot considering that i dont have many friends.  well the count included 2 of my cousins and also mine haha.  anyway the slew of weddings is an indication of the ageing process and in the years to come the funeral count will also start to go up.  this is life. back to the topic, it has been an eye opening experience. you get more of life, but you also get more responsibilities.

Mortality
related to the point on funerals above, i think we need a better appreciation of how fragile life is, especially since we live a in a relatively safe country, without wars or disease.  in any case, two uncles getting cancer and stroke shows the importance of eating and living healthy.  the treatment and recovery process is tough and long, and definitely not easy on self and family.  just last sunday, i was scheduled to take an Air Asia flight and i was pretty nervous before the flight, especially since i had not bought any insurance.  but i noticed that i had a better appreciation for my lunch.  somehow i seemed to taste better, in the understanding that there was a chance i might not get to taste the food again.  i also noted and enjoyed the presence and company of B more.  my point is, we need to live in knowledge that life is temporary and we should appreciate the present while we can. we also need to make arrangements for our loved ones, in the event that we are no longer around.

Work
With the posting out of my more senior colleagues, i inevitably ended up as the more senior colleague.  i was always dreading this moment as i dont think i was ever on top of my work, so i didnt want to the one that others turned to.  i think it turned out better than i thought since i still ended up imparting some knowledge (this is also due to poor KM in our dept) and i am also learning to speak up, due to the pressure of being my position.

2015 will be a milestone year as i enter a new decade for my age. i still dont know what i am doing (though i read that this is normal) and there are still many uncertainties ahead.  well, lets see what i post in another year's time.  :)