The Hot Seat

Today’s meeting didn’t go well. I guess for the first time, I was truly in the hot seat. Some questions I could answer but zhenyang took them for me, I don’t know if he was trying to help me or what, but I guess I would prefer that he didn’t, since this time around I could answer them, not including the one on mileage zzz

AY is really a bastard. Well he didn’t speak untruths, but still its not nice to hear. And since he is a bastard, hearing it just makes him more of a a-hole. Anyway I don’t know what to make of it. I feel bad, because I could have handled it better. At least now I know how :) on the other hand, I wonder if this means that I should just hide in a hole for the remainder of my life. I mean, I feel bad cos I didn’t handle it well. But if I had managed to, and I believe in the future I will be better able to, I would be feeling super high right now for sure

This definitely shows that I am still not ready to move on, that I still have stuff to learn here. #conflicted