egos

yesterday during the meeting i noticed that R talked in a low but weak voice. for me, i interpret this as a lack of confidence since i was doing exactly that last week. hence, u can have the looks but if u dont hv the confidence, u still end up losing points. i do appreciate her candour in saying 'i dont know' though. i suspect someone more skilled would never admit to being not in the know.

it is this strange thing, the ego. we can spend countless hours in meetings trying to enlarge it, defend it, and if uare a complete arse, then also trying to destroy others' ego. u feel good in trampling on a shattered ego, u feel devastated when yours is deflated.

come to think about it, why is the ego so important? obviously, ppl wish to feel good abt themselves, but since we are human and completely fallable, it should not be as hard as it is to admit that we dont know something. i guess it becomes more of an issue when its our job (literally) to know but still dont =/