RAGE

I can only think of one or two other occasions when I have gotten really mad at work. Maybe the previous times I could have prevented it, but this one I could not, which simply adds to my madness.

I really get upset when I get placed in a position unable to do anything and end up stuck between two parties, both who refuse to budge. If I had the choice, I would just bloody well go down and do the job myself, but I cant. What makes it worse is that if the problem doesnt get resolved, it could blow up and make things even worse. When the shit hits the fan, the splash damage is simply frightful and I really dont want that to happen.

Whats more, it was also not me who got me thrown into this position. If it was me, at least with the benefit of hindsight, I would have made different arrangements, done things differently. But really, its the first time I raised my voice on the phone, which means just how pissed I was, ha!

I guess at the end of the day, it is an opportunity to improve my communication and negotiation skills. To treat the job as what it is, a job, and to let everything go when it is time to go home. I guess it would also help if i got a punching bag (a real punching bag, not a person) at the office.