Disheartened

it is quite depressing to work so much and hard, earning less than my peers and yet the people you serve do not appreciate it.  Worse still, they encourage others to attack you.  One could argue that results and outcomes are more important than effort, but change takes time.  Not to mention that alot of work is needed just to keep the status quo running.

anyhow, i feel quite deflated that there is so much unhappiness and conflict.  i wonder if it is already too late for the situation to be salvaged.  this only makes me more certain that i do not like people and issues, which is why my escapism is in food.