Dont dream its over

Been a long day and feel very drained.  the work has been piling on, and out of the blue, Mr M called.  I was actually expecting Mr T, so i was quite surprised.  I thought Mr M would have sorted out his case by now, since the last time we spoke was quite some months ago.

Today was a different tune, but he still has pretty wacky ideas.  Anyway, he finally explained that he was in debt and hence needed money urgently.  But, because he was in debt, he was in no mood to work.  So its actually a vicious cycle, because if you cant work, you cant repay the debt right.

 Initially i was quite unhappy because i was already very busy and there was really nothing i could do to help him.  He was also becoming rude and pushy and starting to order me around to things outside of my domain.  Round 1 over, i made some calls to see how i could help, before starting Round 2.  Not much success there, so round 2 proved even more tiring because he was now asking me to do things that shouldnt be done.

Round 2 over, and i had to take a breather.  I think we were on the phone for over an hour, which meant that i was even more behind my work.  i had also no way of knowing whether he was in genuine need, and so i was feeling quite frustrated.

thinking about it further, i thought it would be better to give him the benefit of the doubt.  while he had some pretty crazy ideas, i suppose when you are at your wits end, you will try to do whatever you can, even if it means coming up with such ideas.  and although work is the best way to repay debt, with people calling you everyday to chase for repayment, it can be quite difficult to concentrate on your work.

nobody wants to fall into financial difficulty, and no rational person would.  but humans are not rational creatures, and based on impulse and emotion, we knowingly take risks we should not be taking, and it is easy to fall down this very steep slope, to the point of no return.  no one is exempt from this, including me.  so round 3 ended early because one of the agencies had closed for the day at 5:30pm (good life!) and round 4 will continue tomorrow morning.

so i am not unhappy anymore, but just tired.  the lull is truly over.