how do u tell that a plate of wanton mee is good? one obvious criteria is that it tastes good. However, "good" is really relative. if u have only tasted one plate of average mee in your life, you may think that plate was good, even though there may be better that you have not tried.
so its the same with people. all along i thought i was doing ok, until the last 2 weeks when i realized how far behind the bell curve i am. it was a rather startling discovery for me, which made me feel pretty bad and out of my depth. i was so self-absorbed, wrapped up in my little own world that i didnt realize what was going on around me.
To a large extent i hv just been floating around and content with melting into the background. i guess when you have no responsibilities its ok to not give a hoot about what others think. But now there are so many things to plan and care for. Work progression (level up skills and income), controlling expenditure, investing and growing savings, planning and caring. phew! i truly realize how much of my youth i have wasted, even though i had much fun playing, now i am paying the price for my sloth, when others lead financially stable, exciting and fulfilling lives.
so its the same with people. all along i thought i was doing ok, until the last 2 weeks when i realized how far behind the bell curve i am. it was a rather startling discovery for me, which made me feel pretty bad and out of my depth. i was so self-absorbed, wrapped up in my little own world that i didnt realize what was going on around me.
To a large extent i hv just been floating around and content with melting into the background. i guess when you have no responsibilities its ok to not give a hoot about what others think. But now there are so many things to plan and care for. Work progression (level up skills and income), controlling expenditure, investing and growing savings, planning and caring. phew! i truly realize how much of my youth i have wasted, even though i had much fun playing, now i am paying the price for my sloth, when others lead financially stable, exciting and fulfilling lives.
perhaps it is indeed God's grace that recent events have led me to realize how inadequate i m. (1) new ppl in the workplace which have a hou lang tui qian lang effect. i have always been the most junior/least experienced, so i was always comfortable to slip into the background. but now i am one of the most senior, i have to step up and be able to provide some inputs and advice.
(2) visit to B's ah ma's house made me realize how low my eq is. i guess there is no need to suck up, but i need to also show respect/decorum when necessary and i am have been pretty unaware when it comes to this. need to be more watchful in the future
(3) ict. Although it is my eight cycle, it is probably the first time that i hv tapped so much on the wide range of knowledge/resources that are found within my platoon. finances, respect and love to others. so important. so much that i should have learnt (and done) earlier.
the main culprit is that i am too passive and withdrawn. my classmate once said that i was "so passive that i was not even human". when i first came to hear of this remark, i was quite upset but now i realize that it was right.
Conclusion: i hope that this wake-up call inspires me to be more thoughtful and pro-active and i do not slip back into my super passive usual self.
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