a failure to communicate

that was my msn nick many years ago, and sad to say it still could be. my social circle is small, yet i never fail to screw things up. is it any wonder i dont like to be around people? going back to sch and seeing all those familiar strangers, somehow just made me more miserable.

i wish that that Zen centre at ubin was still open. i wish i could be somewhere where there were no people for awhile.. i wish...

some time back, i read something about ideals; that its bad to follow them. Like if you consistently fail to meet that standard you impose on yourself, you may just end up a wreck. I suppose it's just how you look at things. Do you see every mistake as a failure or as a chance to learn? Sure, failing sucks, but its how you react to it thats more important. Look! i'm giving myself advice, thats how weird i am.

If I could be like that
I'd give anything
Just to live one day
In those shoes.
If I could be like that,
what would I do?
What would I do?