life

last night i said i was expendable in the ktv context, but my friend took it to mean in every context so he told me to go and die because no one would care anyway. and it got me thinking, would really anyone care if i died? should i care if anyone cares if i died? what should i care about if i were to die? and from that, what is the purpose of life?

i know that the purpose of life would be a life of purpose; sounds nice but yea, WHAT is that purpose? and why is this qn so important anyway? i think its because i am at this crossroads where i am kind of lost, so i need this for some direction. so what is the purpose? is it to make people around me happy? i saw that at the MRT station today and ya it seems nice, but it isnt me cos i am not a people person. is it to make me happy? of course i want it to be but that is rather shallow and to think that i was put here to make myself happy, it is quite dumb.

so i do want to serve a higher purpose in my life. and whats that? saving the world? while it is something i want to do, i really dont see how i am able to contribute to something so big. i mean whatever i do will hardly affect the global picture at all. plus, it is really difficult to get a job in this area? so far i only have had two interviews in this industry la.. singapore boleh

so ya.. from the looks of it, i can contribute to saving the world, but to really make a difference, i would have to work on those around me, and also my current (and future) students.

my mission statement:
to make a difference and add value in everything i do

values:
integrity, hard work